Blog Book

I know that I heard people talk about how you can make your blogs into a book. But I can't remember who told me and where to do it. So anyone who knows, please tell me! I am going to use my Christmas cash from Jeremy's work to get it. I'm excited!

Cats Baby Shower

We had so much fun at my sister Cathryn's Baby shower on Saturday. Cherish and Cynthia and Mom decorated so cute. We sisters each brought some kind of dip and stuff to dip in them. There was a bean dip, cheese dip, spaghetti dip, peanut butter carmel, and chocolate. It was so yummy. It was so fun to see so many of my family come.

Cute belly. Her due date is January 3rd.

Thank you Cherish for the pictures. I forgot to even pull my camera out.

My sisters and my Mom.

For those of you who don't know. From left to right, Christine, Cherish, Cynthia, me and Cathryn. All C's fun, huh. (Even Cherish, my brothers wife is a C!)

P.S. Cute story

Before we left for the shower, Logan was getting ready to go with Daddy in the "guck, guck" (big truck. He can say it better now but he reverts to what he's used to) He was following behind Jeremy as he put stuff in the truck and came back, then Jeremy spit. So Logan spit. It was so dang funny. He had most of it hanging off his chin. He copies everything we do and say. What a cutie!

Jenna's special day

Sunday was a really great day! Jenna was blessed! I asked Bishop Neilson if we could do it right before church and I asked our old bishop, Bishop Mecham if he would do the blessing. The best part is that Jeremy came! I told him a couple of hours before that we were doing it and that he was invited, but he didn't have to come. Five minutes before we left, he went up and got dressed in Sunday clothes. I promise I was happy, I wasn't ready.
She got to wear the dress that my Mommy made for Kylee, and Summer also wore it. Isn't she so beautiful! The blessing was so beautiful. Jenna slept the whole time, making cute little noises a couple of times, and spitting out her binky. As soon as they handed her back to me, she opened those big eyes and just stared at all the men, so seriously. It was so cute. Jeremy stayed for Sacrament meeting and watched the girls sing. Then the bishop asked to talk to him. He was in his office for at least a half hour. I guess it went good. Jer was ok after. And I talked him into taking Jenna home with him. I had just fed her, so he took her home, undressed her and put her to sleep in her bed. He kept saying "She is just going to cry the whole time" She didn't. What a good daddy. It was so much easier to teach my class without her.

Cynthia made the blanket when Kylee was a baby. It is also beautiful. I have a talented family.

I laughed so hard when Summer came down wearing this outfit. I talked her into changing into white tights and a different shirt. She's so cute.

The kids each got to pick a beanie baby from Grandma Hayes. We picked this lamb for Jenna. Kylee had her hold it. So cute.

Kylee also had me put these on her. She is so dang cute.

"Whoa, Mom, what is going on?"

Lesson learned

I have learned a lot from my kids over the years, and I know the things I am doing wrong as a Mom. Of course I know the hardest part is that I can't change over night. I know I am doing better, but I still am a little impatient and am too quick to get angry.

Well last night I got another lesson. Taught by Kylee. I have been a little "mean" lately. I sent them up to bed last night, reminding them to hurry and turn out the light, No Playing, and I'd be up in a minute to check on them. Well, when I came up, the light was still on and Summer was sitting on the desk. Of course I don't stop and think, I just get frustrated.

I'm like, Summer get your but in bed, I said to hurry up and no playing. Yadda, yadda, yadda. Kylee tries to explain to me that Summer was sitting there to easily turn off the light, and she was waiting for Kylee to find her clock. Of course I just say, be quiet and lay down. I turn out the light and shut the door and walk down the hall when I hear Kylee say "I hate you!"

Oh my gosh! Did my own child just say she hates me? I got instant tears. I wasn't mad that she said something so mean, I was just sad that I made her think that. After standing there for a second, I decided to go talk to her. I quietly opened the door and she sat up to look at me and I told her that I heard what she said. She was embarrassed for a second, then she burst into tears. I told her I felt so sad when I heard her say that. She said "Sometimes your just so mean!" I told her I was sorry and asked her to help me not be so mean anymore. I told her that I love her. Her tears told me she loves me.

I know I will never forget the lesson I learned last night. I am always thinking about the relationship I want to have with my children, especially when they are teenagers and I have to stop being "so mean" if I want them to want to talk to me about things.

So I still know that I can't change over night, but there is more I can do to help. Pray more, etc. I will do whatever I can for my kids! I love them too much, and I know Heavenly Father does.

Pumpkin

Yesterday I decided to cut up a big pumpkin that we didn't carve, steam it, puree it and freeze it. I took me a couple of hours, cause my steamer is small, but I ended up with 12 cup and a half to two cup servings ready to freeze. I was so proud of myself. I figured I can use it to make lots of different pumpkin desserts and I can feed it to Jenna in a few months.

I was so proud of myself! Jeremy was gone to a Jazz game, so when he got home I told him about it. He was such a bum! He asked me what pumpkin I used and when I told him, he said "How do you know there weren't any bugs in it?"
So I asked him if he'd ever eaten an apple. He said of course I have. So I asked, "How do you know there weren't any bugs in it?"

He didn't answer. Men. Humph.

The many faces of Logan, and more.

He is so unique. The girls were playing Go Fish and Logan helped Summer hold cards for about 1 minute in which time he managed to always show Kylee. Then he just started throwing them and running through the middle of the girls. So I distracted him by having him get my camera and of course he had to have his picture taken, again and again.


Then he decided to sit on Summers lap. Summer had been crying cause, after winning the first game, she lost the second one and burst into tears. We had a good talk about being a good loser and a good winner. We'll see how she does next time.

Crazy kids! They were having so much fun.

Playing at the church while I exercised. I didn't get there in time, but there were about 6 kids sitting next to each other in this little corner. It was cute.

Summer took a nap the other day. I finally got Logan to nap and told her to go clean the toys off the stairs and out of the family room. She was gone a long time and was so quiet that I went to check on her. This is what I found. She did clean though! Logan has been fighting me on naps pretty much everyday. He naps probably only 25% of the time. Today he didn't nap but he was quiet in his room for about an hour. That is good. I better post this, Logan realized he can climb up on Kylee's bed. The only problem is, he can't get down. I need to go get him!

Just chillin' on Sunday morning.

Logan wanted to read Jenna a book. How cute.

Just some fun pics

Kylee loves to take pictures. So that is why there is one of me. I don't necessarily like seeing myself, but oh well. Logan tries to go play in the garage all the time now. I'm always making him come back inside. Sometimes though I just make him put on a coat and let him go. It's not like he can go anywhere with the door shut and he know what he can and can't touch. There isn't many things he can reach anyway. So that is why he is wearing my gloves.

Homework

When I put Kylee's bed together she was so excited to have a desk she said that she would do her homework on it everyday. I knew that wasn't likely, cause everyone else was always in the living room and she has to be where people are. (Plus she is always asking me questions) So this is probably the second time she did homework in here, and that is because I was doing laundry in the hallway. She is so cute!

We decided to put Jenna's crib in the girls room for a number of reasons. Mostly because Logan is crazy and I can only imagine what he would do when alone with her, and because I didn't want to ever interrupt his nap time. And because their room is a little bit bigger. I think it looks good in there. So Jenna is still in her bassinet in my room, but only for a little bit longer. She still wakes up once or twice and I'm too lazy to walk down the hall. (Plus it might be dangerous, me walking around without my glasses. Nice excuse, huh?)

I love my kids.

This is kind of hard for me to talk about. I have talked to some of my closest friends and family about it,but I decided to write about it to either get some good advice, or help others who feel the same way.

So of course I totally love my kids.

Who couldn't love these cute little squirts. When Kylee was little, she was my life. I was so proud of her and loved to show off how cute and smart she is. Then Summer was born and Kylee got too grown up. I still loved her a ton but she started bugging me. It sounds so horrible to say it. I would get annoyed at her so easy, and I didn't want her to touch me. What a horrible Mom, right? Well that is how I felt.

I knew I could still take care of her and teach her things, but I didn't want her too close. I also knew this wasn't the right way to feel. After talking to a few people about the problem and getting some extra advice, all I could do was pray to help my feelings change. I did a little better, but realized I needed to do more than pray when I started to feel the same way about Summer after Logan was born. So I made myself give extra hugs, and answer questions I didn't want to answer. (Like "Where are we going?" I usually would say "You'll see" or something) It was actually a fight in my head: "Just say it, just tell them, its o-k if they know" Then I would make myself say it. It was hard.

But it paid off. With all the praying, and changing my actions, I was able to change my feelings. Now I can say that I look at my kids and only feel love. Last night Summer was sitting right next to me on the couch, leaning on me and instead of saying "Move over your too close" I put my arm around her and gave her a hug. She was beaming. She held my hand and played with my fingers smiling. I may have to still make myself give longer hugs and kisses, but the joy on their faces makes it all worth it.

My Kylee is so beautiful. I have tears in my eyes right now just thinking about her. She always says (whenever people mention my three redheads) "I'm the only one without red hair" Her hair is not totally blond anymore, and I'm sure it will end up brown. I love it! She is going to be a beautiful woman someday. I am so glad I have my blue eyed girl. She is still so smart, and she is so helpful. She loves to help me without me even asking her to. She is finding things, lately, that she loves to do. She loves to sing and dance. And she loves to read and write stories. She is very good at it too.

Summer makes me smile all day. She is so unique. I love her hair and her spunkiness that comes with it. She is so creative. She can have fun even without toys. Her hands become people and she can play with them for hours. She is also so smart. I never thought she'd be dumb, but with her la la la personality I thought she wouldn't care to learn. But she surprises me everyday with things she remembers. She loves going to preschool and has learned so so much. She also loves to sing and remembers almost all the words of songs Kylee teaches her from school.

I'm happy to say that I know I will never feel that way about Logan and Jenna and will never about the girls again. I will still have to fight with myself to answer simple questions (due to my stubbornness and liking to have control of things), but I will prevail! For those of you who have helped me with this- Thank you! And to those who might be feeling similar feelings- don't give up! Heavenly Father loves you and will be there to help.

Another Tag!

I haven't done this one yet so here it goes.

8 things

8 T.V. shows I like to watch

1. E.R. (its the last season)

2. House

3. The biggest loser

4. Survivor

5. The Today show

6. Are you smarter than a 5th grader

7. Don't forget the lyrics

8. Hells kitchen

8 things that happened yesterday

1. Fed Jenna

2. Fed Jenna again

3. Got up and ate my regular breakfast. (1 egg and a bowl of cereal)

4. Did kickboxing at the church

5. Showered

6. Went to get milk at Walmart

7. Checked my blog and made 3 posts

8. Made Spaghetti squash for dinner! Yum.

8 places I like to eat

1. Red Robin

2. Los Harmanos

3. Panda Express

4. Costa Vita

5. Arby's

6. Wendy's

7. Subway

8. Pizza Hut

8 things I'm looking forward to

1. Christmas

2. Kylee's Baptism

3. Dinner

4. The next time Jer and I have time alone (Sleeping doesn't count)

5. Finishing the 3rd Eragon book

6. Reading another book

7. Cat's baby shower

8. Next Sunday

8 things on my wish list

1. Laser eye surgery

2. A trip to Disneyland

3. A house with at least 10 acres

4. No debt

5. A really sensitive and cuddly husband (I know it won't happen, but I can wish)

6. For my, Uhums, to not go away when I'm done nursing

7. For a flat belly

8. For me to never forget to read my scriptures and pray.

I tag anyone who hasn't done this yet and wants to!

Fun times.

On Saturday we went to run some errands and we went out to eat at Red Robin. (Probably our favorite restaurant.) I had the best mushroom burger. Logan fell asleep in the car for the first time in a long time. Such a cute little brat!

Dressing up for school.

I always loved wearing my costume to school. Jeremy's mom came into town on Thursday night and got to come to Summer's preschool trunk or treat, and Kylee's parade. It was so fun!

Sorry its blurry. That is Kylee's teacher behind her. Ms. Moore. She is a very good teacher.

The cute cheerleader!This is Mrs. Kelley. She is actually the Relief Society Pres. in our ward. She taught 2nd grade last year and I wanted Kylee to have her this year, but this year she went to the first grade. Oh well, we like Ms. Moore.

Waiting for Kylee to come.

I Isn't that the cutes face ever.
Smiling at grandma.

She'd had enough excitement I guess.

Summer's parade.

What a cute class!

Logans favorite thing!

Jeremy got home from work and Logan always go to the garage to see him come in. A little later we realized that he didn't come back in. So I went to find him and this is what I found.
He was trying to talk me into opening the garage and taking him for a ride. (Love the gloves)
I asked him if he was on grandpa's fourwheeler and he said "Mine, fulleller!"